what i m0xt like t0 do in wh0le day??

belle..that's wut u xhud call me..
the w0rd "b0ring" isn't in ma dicti0nary..
these is wut i alwys d0 in ma day to prevent that w0rd "b0ring" to be xp0ken thru ma fucking m0uth..

1. lixtening t0 muxic..
xince that is ma drug..
ma fucking genre.,metal..
and these wut i l0ve to lixten to..
- st0len babies
- as bl0od runs black
- begging for incest
- placenta
- elysia
- sigh
and/but many more..hehe..

2. xketching..
i ain't go0d in art..
yet u wud xay "hey,even ma 6th year old sister cn draw that..
but wh0 care c0s that's h0w i exprexx ma deprexxed..
by drawing xum pathetic human with0ut eyeballx..

3. writing p0emx..
i need n0body to talk t0..
s0 that's why i'd juxt mumbling maxelf,putting w0rdx and write em d0wn..
i'm n0t go0d in w0rding,to be h0next..
but i enj0y maxelf writing all ma heart out..

Friday, October 9, 2009

Wanna Read Funny Story From Emily?

...leave d0wn y0ur fucking email and i will xend y0u 1...

Stolen Babies : There Be Squabbles Ahead

wut t0 write ab0ut this fucking album??
damn.,juxt lixten to it y0u wud know h0w it feels..haha..
there be squabbles ahead by st0len babies
is the bext feaxt that i ever had..
this fucking band influenced by cabaret metal and leading by d0minique persy..
the v0x,persy,is fuckingly awex0me dressed-up like an evil xp0oky cl0wn..
even her fucking xcream en0ugh to freak kidx up..
turn up candiexx into smthg that might eat y0u back..
haunted h0use that w0nt let y0u go out back to life..
one of my fav0rite s0ng,spill!
the rext are my fucking s0ng..huhu..
here,the lixt of this album's track..
There Be Squabbles Ahead
1. Spill!
2. Awful Fall
3. Filistata
4. A Year Of Judges
5. So Close
6. Tablescrap
7. Swint? Or Slude?
8. Mind Your Eyes
9. Lifeless
10. Tall Tales
11. Push Button
12. Gathering Fingers
13. The Button Has Been Pushed
and the bext part is Push Button muxic vide0..

ermmm there's n0thg elxe to xay other than "fucking awex0oomee!!"

ab0ut laxt year.,they had releaxed a new xingle titled "Grubbery"

with a freaking graveyard occured muxic vide0 that t0tally chill my b0ne..

and xtill.,i d0nt kn0w they g0nna release a new album inxtead of g0ing here and there playing the xame fucking x0ngx in gigx..

and h0pefully they w0uld c0me out with a m0re and m0re awex0me x0ngx..

Friday, October 2, 2009

purchase 1 or m0re this vo0do0 dolls..
or even by making 1 by ownself..
curse those people that you loved..
and send them to hell..
it can releases your inner revenge..
those m0ment you wanted pay..
those moment when you had been left..
now put a smile on your face..
and hang em on your phone or bag..

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Dark Lolita or as kn0wn as Guro Lolita
(i called g0re l0lita..hehe)
s0me bands y0u might kn0w that has this fucking elements
Stolen Babies and The Candy Spooky Theatre
Pink and Black Gothic Bedroom??

Yeah..c0mbination of the nice and evil side..

Black and Pink Lolita Set

Angelic Pretty Edition

Gothic Lolita Dress

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

My Love Dedication

As Blood Runs Black

Artist : As Blood Runs Black
Album : Allegiance
Released : June 6th,2006 (06.06.06)
Genre : Deathcore
Track Listing
1. Intro
2. In Dying Days
3. My Fear Have Become Phobias
4. Hester Prynne
5. Pouring Reign
6. The Brighter Side Of Suffering
7. The Beautiful Mistake
8. Strife (Chug Chug)
9. Beneath The Surface
10. Legends Never Die
one of my fav0rite band that i failed to st0p lixten f0r each fucking day..learn ab0ut em by ma ex wh0 lived in sarawak,and this band was the bext mem0ry fr0m him..1st x0ng i'd d0wnloaded was Legends Never Die..f0r this fucking x0ng'x fault,i f0rced maxelf 2 dwnl0ad m0re..as a rexult.,i am damn in l0ve with As Blo0d Runs Black..=)
this fucking year,i heard they are g0ing to release their new album.,Descent Into Hysteria..thats fucking awex0me after hearing their on off band's member.,and of c0urse i can't wait to listen t0 their new fucking xcream..hehe..
lets get it guys........

Saturday, August 15, 2009

one day of Emily...

Emily sat waaaay down in her laid back Sooper-Snoozer-Rancho-Relaxo-Recliner to ponder another late night art project. Just as a side note - This chair eats people. Although. It hasn’t eaten Emily (yet) and since she is the first owner of the chair, I guess we may never know if it truly eats people. But...let me just say... Emily used to have 5 cats.

OK. Back to the doll heads. Basically, the problem with these doll heads – Emily thought to herself – was that they were BORING. They needed spicing up.

Emily approached the first doll head.

“Spicing up indeed,” she said, throwing on a chef’s hat, and all the cats leaped back as she flew into a culinary rage of slicing, dicing and julienning. She dipped the doll head in toad slime, rolled it in magic pot, sprinkled it with hot dog, and then boiled it in poisoning milk – and then baked it in her e-z bake oven until it was golden red and nicely vomit of rice. “Perfect!” Emily yelled, “it looks just like avril!”

On to the next one, “This doll head needs a totally different treatment,” Emily thought. “Maybe instead of the kitchen, I should look to…the garden.” She strapped on her bionic rake and broke open the doll head, then packed it full of eating-insect flower and apple spider plant until it looked cat's soul. She sprinkled roses bushes seeds inside and then put the head back together with margerine and nails. She threw it into her e-z GROW oven until huge green tendrils of mutant, carnivorous, eeeewwww!! roses bushes had sprouted from the doll head, filled the e-z grow oven, filled the room, scared the cats, and started nibbling on Emily’s limb. “IT’S PERFECT,” Emily shouted, “On to the next one!!”

“Now, let’s not forget that this IS an art project. Why don’t we go into my studio for inspiration?” All the cats followed her nervously into the art studio, where Emily put on her beret, picked up seven paintbrushes in her left hand and eight cans of spray paint in her right hand... and approached the doll head. A few box of hot chemical later and the doll head was a psychedelic rainbow of black, black and black... but Emily wasn’t satisfied until she had welded on some painkiller, soldered on some microscope and then nailed the finished doll head to a huge, strange motor.

Finally, her doll heads were awesome!

Fast forward to six years later. Emily had traveled all the way to seremban for the opening of her new art show, called duck Dolls, and the critics were going crazy over it. Fashionable people from exotic places like duck and thailand stood around in their designer canada and thread haircuts, sipping liquid clown out of flask and eating bulls eye. Emily and her cats were hiding behind a massive sculpture of ashlee simpson riding a giraffe, and spying on the crowd as they admired the duck Doll heads.

“Dahling!” they said, “These dolls are dig! They’re dunk! They’re die! We haven’t seen doll heads this dizzle since amy lee!!”

From her hiding place, Emily and the cats laughed to themselves. “fuckinglicious!” said Emily, “Art critics really are a bunch of fucking big asshole teeth!”

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Gorgeous Collection from MARUI

I'd found these gOrgeous cOllection when i'd scrOlled for fun in a web called MARUI web channel International.
You can check mOre.,also buy them if you want through the web.
But beware.,don't let yourself lOst control by em..

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Sweel Lolita a.k.a Amaloli

Sweet Lolita (amaloli) is heavily influenced by Rococo styles as well as Victorian and Edwardian children's clothing. Focusing on the child and fantasy aspects of Lolita, the Sweet Lolita style adopts the basic Lolita format and uses lighter colors and child fantasy themes in its design.
Makeup used in sweet Lolita is common throughout most Lolita styles. A natural look is emphasized, to help maintain the childlike feel of Lolita. Light pastels and natural colors make up the Lolita makeup color scheme.
Sweet Lolita places its focus on the child-like aspects of the Lolita style. Outfits consist of pastels, gingham or other colorful prints, lace, bows, and ribbons to emphasize the cuteness in the design. Popular themes in the sweet Lolita are references to Alice in Wonderland, fruits, sweets and classic fairy-tales.

Jewelry often reflects this fantasy theme. Headdresses and bows are also a popular hair accessory to the sweet Lolita look. Bags and purses are often very cute with princess-like designs, and often in the form strawberries, crowns, hearts, and stuffed animals
, a protagonist in the book/film Shimotsuma Monogatari (Kamikaze Girls in the US), is a popular example of sweet Lolita. She idealizes the rococo period and tries to "live" in the Rococo lifestyle through Lolita. She loves the popular Sweet Lolita brand, Baby, The Stars Shine Bright.

p/s=isn't that SWEET??

What Is Gothic?

Today misconception of gothic:
Gothic = my chemical romance
Gothic = satanic/black metal
Gothic = evil/witch wannabes
Goths are people whose thoughts are different from the others. But that doesn't mean that they omly thought about witch,black magic,satanic,death,etc. Most goth (the real one) are ART LOVERS,be it MUSIC,VISUAL etc. One more thing,not all goth wears black all the time and gothic are not only limited to BLACK. Some even wears pink,not only Japs but the western also some of them had already chosen colors other than black.

Monday, June 22, 2009

I-SOCKS Fans Gathering
July 4th 2009,Saturday
Berjaya Times Square

I loOoove gOthic lOlita..kawaii!!

1. Mini to knee length frilly poofy skirts, most likely with a crinoline that does not show under it.
2. Ruffled elegant Victorianesque blouses.
3. Mostly black blouses sometimes with white Peter Pan collars, cuffs and sleeves. White lace can be at the bottom of the capped sleeves and at the collar. Both plain or embellished blouses.
4. Babydoll dresses, sometimes below the knee but mostly mini to knee length.
5. Colors for these separates are mostly black or white or a combination of both. Sometimes red, pastel pink, and pastel blue. The later two colors worn only with white.
6. The French Maid look or Alice in Wonderland look of a white apron over a black babydoll dress was an original Gothic Lolita look. It is not seen as much now.
7. These dresses and skirts are worn with knee-high or thigh high stockings. Some times white with little bows and ruffles at the top or in black fishnet with holes and without. Mostly black opaque stocking material.
8. Headdresses are a must. Mostly in black or black and white. A small rectangular headband headdress made of ruffles, ribbons, and lace. Can be worn with a bow under the chin. It is worn at the crown of the head, just above where bangs are. Can be used to hold hairpieces in.
9. Sometimes the headpiece can extend over the forehead like a small bonnet, this happens most often in white.
10. A small top hat worn askew on the head is sometimes seen.
11. Shoes are Mary Jane type platform heels or large platform shoes. Very chunky and clog-like.
12. Women wear long or short large curls on either side of the head, or a full head of curls ala Shirley Temple. Long straight hair worn sometimes with bangs is a common look as well. Many wear wigs and hairpieces to achieve these looks. Hair is mostly black but can be any shade of brown.
13. Little to no make-up is worn. The look requires a pale complexion, which many Japanese women already have. Any shade of red lipstick is fine with black eyelashes and a small amount of black eyeliner. Fresh faced and young.
14. Large pocketbooks are carried. Some are huge container-like suitcases in a variety of forms from the carpetbag to the circular hatbox. Some women carry handbags in the shape of bats and coffins.
15. A parasol is a must on sunny days in the park.
16. On occasion lace gloves and lace opera length arm warmers complete this look.
17. When the look begins to lean towards Victorian mourning, with long dresses and ghouly make-up, it is Visual Kei or Gothic and not Gothic Lolita. But the elegant Victorian look with a long skirt is still Lolita.

I'm c0ming f0r y0u darling..

I'm c0ming f0r y0u darling..

I Hate..

i hate t0 think that i am fine.,
even its really hurt inside..

i hate t0 think that i'm okay.,
even i'd slitted my wrist anyway..

i hate t0 think that i w0nt care.,
even i still ask y0u the same..

i hate t0 think that i wanna run.,
but i w0uld c0me back in the end..

i hate t0 think that i wanna hide.,
but secretly i w0uld steal y0ur sight..

i hate t0 think that i wanna die.,
but i always ask back myself why..

i hate t0 think that i d0n't wnna l0se.,
this deep feeling t0ward y0u..

p/s=r0ses are red,and the sky s0 blue..
the only thing that i hate,is t0 losing y0u..

(a fucking p0em that i wr0te by maxelf)