Rest In Peace...

Few days ago, I had a nightmare, sweet nightmare actually. Cos I tend to meet my beloved guy, Joseph Kero, in that dream. We didn't talked much but I cried a lot. Hahhh! and fuckk!!

So, secara rasmi setelah itu, segala memori yg xbpe na indah tiba2 dtg dlm kple otak balik. Hell yeah, and once again, fuckk!!

Actually it all started by the death of Bleed or nama sebenar dia Bleyzinna Chia. She was the first and last bestfriend that I have ever had. :'(

She died hanging in her room, found by her mother. And she did left a letter telling how she diasppointed for commiting suicide, and she wanted me to sing Lithium by Evanescence on her funeral day. I refused at first, but her mom kept convinving me, telling me that I can do that as penghormatan terakhir utk dia. :'(

and Joseph Kero..

just a month later after the death of Bleed, he drank a lot, depressed..till one day his sister told me he was admitted for Lung Cancer..sy xpernah taw pun yg dia ada kanser paru-paru until that day. Only that time it was all too late. Of course, sy ponteng sekolah utk tngk dia di hospital, malam sebelum dia mati, he called me, we had a chat, and it was too depressing and I shed tears a lot. Dia cakap, kalau boleh dia na jaga sy sampai dia mati, dan dia slalu doa dia akan mati sblm sy, but beforehand, he prayed that I can meet someone who can take care of me while he's gone. Yeee! Sbb dia lah org yg paling sy syg and sy akan cari in whatever happened.,sejak dia xde, I was depressed sgt, sangat2 terasa kehilangan dia cos sy betol2 rse cm xde tmpt na brgantung..No matter how much I cried, nothing can bring him back. :'(

Sy prnah curik sweater dia bawak balik.,waktu tu hujan, so dia kasi pinjam sweater dia and sy xpernah pulang balik at dia..after his death, I cuddled with his sweater a lot, wishing that I could hug him when I cry :'(

Slalu malam lepas jamming, dia susah kasi sy balik..alasannye, takot sy kna culik. Dia akan suroh sy stay awhile, teman dia main gitar, main piano sometimes..

2 days ago I posted in fb lagu Evanescence - My Immortal. And yeah, lagu tu remind me of him a lot. The memories that I had with him that night, that raining night. It was a beautiful night that I can't never had again. :'(

Ntah npe malam neyh sy na emo2 lax, but yeah, these are the saddest story in my life, yg betol2 kasi big effect dlm hidop sy..

Evanescence - Thoughtless (Live In Europe)

hi semua! (i mean, if, ada org na bace this fucking post..)
ok! right n0w i'm kinda free, like really2 free c0s every0ne has g0ne back h0me by n0w..
It's Friday.,l0ng recess peri0d things.,same 'ol same 'ol..

So, xbanyak benda na wut t0day, since patients pun xramai, like, ada 3org je..
I've d0ne the HRMIS but better I save s0me f0r my s0-boring-h0liday nanti..
Macam yg da cakap at Sufian, "I hate cuti, s0 so so much"
haa, cmtu lax kan.,sbnrnye taw, ramai yg suke cuti, sy lax yg gedik x ske, mentang2 la kje x susah..banyak enj0y daari bekerja.,haha..

Actually I am so in loove with my j0b.,I love every single things that happened on my w0rking day, banyak! but x usah la saya bebel sangat pasal hal tu ok..hee~

Right n0w tengah melayan Evanescence.,nyanyi kuat2 c0s n0 one here, plus sangat da lamer x layan Evanescence..s0 tiba2 m0od na jadi Amy Lee tu datang balik.,hikhik..

Okla.,
first na share this fucking video..
saya sangat suke lagu neyh c0s it's a c0ver fr0m a very kn0wable band called KORN..haa, kenalkan..Even org yg xlayan metal pun mesti kenal nye lah ngn band neyh..
saya neyh xde la minat sangat ngn Korn.,tp lagu dari Korn yg Evanescence bawak neyh sangat best.,even the original versi0n itself xleyh kalah.,hihi.,in my p0int of view lah..

so sape free and rasa na try dengar sila lah play vide0 di bawah neyh eh..

In additon to that c0ncert Evanescence at Europe neyh pun one of my fav0rite,.sape yg pernah memiliki album dye called "Anywhere But Home" ,fyi, th0se live tracks berasal dari c0ncert neyh.,hehe..and actually what I meant by Europe sbnrnye live fr0m Paris.,n0t around the europe :)

oklah.,smpai di sini sahaja.,I have m0re vide0 to view and see u guys later..

New Release on January 2013

ok, baru2 neyh update myself with the latest singles..

xnak ckp banyak here's the links :

purposely choose this video.,sh0wing the album c0ver art..

BMTH is one of my fav0rite..

listening to this new single agak same ngn album yg sblmnye "There Is A Hell,Believe Me I've Seen It,There Is A heaven,Let's Keep It A Secret".,mcm lagu It Never Ends je lebih kurang..

 

And to be h0nest BMTH's recent album (after Count Your Blessings dan Suicide Season) sangat x best, bagi aku la..suara Oli Sykes scream da macam bersepah..but I still ad0re the riffings and paddlings..

 

But still these just pandangan peribadi..maybe few pe0ple still suke this band because of pengaruh screamo yg masih kuat kot.,haha..yelah, setahu aku rmai pmpuan yg tergila2kan si Oli Sykes neyh.,hehe..

 

Whatever lah..

 

and here are s0me other new releases of 2013 :

 

 

lain :

 

1. Your Demise - Cold Chillin'

2. Killswitch Engage - Temper

 

 

 



giant p0ster ☠ Arch Enemy - Khaos Legion

I've g0t this fucking p0ster from Metal Hammer.,a metal magazine that i b0ught yesterday..

I didn't think it was an amazing p0ster at first c0s i d0n't listen t0 Arch Enemy that much..and i paste the fucking p0ster on my back do0r just because i felt like t0..but then,after f0r a while,i was like "hey.,it's awes0me"..and my fav0rite part was the bunch of skelet0n with red eyes..i alm0st f0rgot that i'm easily fall in love with SKELETONS..haha..

and s0.,i d0n't think i ad0re the p0ster much..but i'm IN LOVE with the skeletons.. (:

☠ my drug by 26th July 2011 ☠

Chelsea Grin - Ep 2008

tracklist:

1. Crewcabanger
2. Anathema Of The Sick
3. Cheyne-Strokes
4. Disgrace
5. Lifeless

Clinging To The Trees Of A Forest Fire - Harmonies From Bleeding Mouth ( 2006 )

tracklist:

1. Loathing In The Key Of A
2. Hollywood Cowboy
3. Adna
4. Crossing The Gasoline Sea
5. The Equestrian
6. Hate Is...
7. ...The New Black

Deicide - Till Death Do Us Part ( 2008 )

tracklist:

1. The Beginning Of The End
2. Till Deat Do Us Part
3. Hate Of All Hatreds
4. In The Eyes Of God
5. Worthless Misery
6. Severed Ties
7. Not As Long As We Both Shall Live
8. Angels Of Agony
9. Horror In The Halls Of Stone
10. The End Of The Beginning ( instrumental, by Asheim )


these albums i d0wnload balik selepas lapt0p ku dif0rmat dan hamba Allah tu blhkn LUPA na wut backup..haizz.,anyway..these are my drugs for this week.. (:

☠ my drug by 7th May 2011 ☠

muh neuh drug
DISSIMULATED - EXOGENESIS
a pr0gressive death metal/hardc0re band

here's the tracklist:

1. Exogenesis
2. Red Sky
3. Incarnadine
4. Wonders Of What's Above
5. Souls Of Hatred
6. Cognitive Dissonance

enj0y =)

study hard...Death Metal vs Black Metal

meet every0ne..the Black Metal Barbie..huuu..
\m/ hail to her..

t0day aku na update b0ut new kn0wledge yg aku bljr..this is kinda freak 0ut coz i supp0sed t0 be an EXPERT ab0ut this l0ng time ag0 until few pers0n start to c0nfusing me..l0l..

ok..first of all aku update kat MALAYSIAN METAL GROUP in fb..demanding any members yg leh explain the difference between DEATHCORE and DEATH METAL..plus DEATH METAL ngan BLACK METAL..as i th0ught few pe0ple start t0 give answers yg bagi aku lagi c0nfuse..haha..but anyway thanks t0 every0ne yang really care to help me..walaupun masalah neh xdelah besar sangat..tapi mampu expl0dekan otak aku gak la na differ these shit out..

and thanks to this f0lk named Man Tarantulah ( awes0me name dude.,c0s i l0ve tarantula..hehe ) and a lil chat ngan Chum Kriegzerst0rer.,bantuan mereka buatkan aku study hard,baca few articles,experiencing and etc..i think i can start to differ few bands..

of c0s sbnrnye bnyk beza nye..tapi xtaw la nape aku susah sngt na bezakan..dari segi riff,dan yg paling ketara jeritan..senang na ingat klu black metal,mereka just shriek but death metal agak vari0us..but they're scream and gr0wl more..that's it..

then yang membuatkan pe0ple say "black metal ngan death metal same" is a subgenre yang c0me out fr0m both black metal and death metal i.e BLACKENED DEATH METAL..that's wut put band as DIMMU BORGIR,DEICIDE defined themselves as Black Metal/Death Metal..

s0.,BLACK METAL's example are::
Mayhem ( the pi0neer )
Gorgoroth
Bathory
Marduk
Emperor

and DEATH METAL lax::
Death ( the pi0neer )
Cryptopsy
Cattle Decapitation
Necrophagist
Spawn of Possession
Arch Enemy
Amon Amarth

ok..n0te to self that death metal ade bnyk subgenres..s0 jgn pelik bile list di atas ada kelainan music..enj0y..

The Birthday Massacre

saya sangat obsess ngan the birthday massacre neh..tapi dulu la..especially kat fr0ne lady die,Chibi..bukan chibi maruk0 chan k.,she's the 0ther chibi..d0n't kn0w what's her real name,but that what's pe0ple asked to call her..she's cute.,awes0me..i l0ve anything that she wear,th0se simple g0th style..als0 her cute and creepy v0ice..i remember seeing her playing r0le in their Blue music vide0.,that was the first time i was fallen int0 her..

black metal tribution

hail t0 my metal s0ul

☠ 8th April 2011 ☠ Gastrorrexis

yeaaaayy.,new album in my fucking hand..
haa.,actually i d0wnloaded it..
this recent internet trsangatlah baek hati..
mklumlah bkn slalu leh manje2 ngan wifi McD neh kn..
itupun 2 hari gak aku pause.,smbung dwnl0ad.,pause.,smbg g dwnl0ad..
menyirap gak ar..
naseb bkn a w0rthless sacrifice..huhu..

this band called GASTRORREXIS
actually aku bkn na dwnl0ad band neh..
other band called GROTESQUE DISFIGUREMENT
ntah can0 aku leh dpt band neh.,slah type k0wt..
trlebih excited neh intrnet laju..
x sabar na men d0wnload..
last2.,da abesh dwnl0ad bru perassan..
WTH..

tp naseb leh thn dak band neh..
i mean.,da jd fucking fave aku lak tuh..
everyday aku brsumbat ngn mp3 dngr band neh..
alm0st everynight gak bang my fucking head off to these..
maklum la.,lagu bru..
tu yang addict skejap..
kang da dwnl0ad album/band baru haram la aku na dngr lg..
hahaha..

ok..st0p babbling..
this album called
GROTESQUE HUMAN DISFIGUREMENT
a nice sh0t for
death metal plus grindc0re..
or as my Darling menti0ned.,Slam Metal..
with th0se cute lil pig squel and nice gr0wl..
hurmm.,really LOVE this album..

with 12 traclists..
enuff to lust me up..
here's:

1. Brutality Raped
2. Thorax Deformed
3. Endocranial Extirpation
4. Carnival Dismemberment
5. Eaten By Worms
6. Rotten Humanity
7. Vaginal Inhaled
8. Broken Face
9. Anus Vermin
1o. Strangulation
11. Torture Gore
12. Severing Stomach

leh dikatakan sume track aku ske..
mmg la bile org dngr "pe la memekak na lgu k0 neh"
yaa.,sy ngaku..
tp org x faham selera kte kan..
s0 snyap je la..
sambil lyan jeritan dan riff memukau neh..haha..

huh.,pnat da type2..
g0t more s0ngs to expl0re..
=)